I wanna fall into sea

striving so hard to live

wishing to just find some peace

I feel exhausted

I lose out of my breath

like someone’s choking me

killing me to death.

I wanna fall into the sea

getting rid of toxicity

want to heal from all the pain

but when I try to stand I still see the stain

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tears inevitable like the rain

showers helping me hide my vain

people moving besides but I still stand lost

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the demon rises and the grey sky makes me feel blue

depression, anxiety aren’t just words so loose

feeling so empty inside

I feel so much, I feel so low

I wanna cry, I wanna dive

I wanna fall into the sea

falling off the cliff

never wanting to be back

closing my eyes I see my dream

yes, it is a lucid dream

where…I wanna fall into the sea

crying to my pillow

I wish I was drunk

I wish not everything had to make sense

I just wanted to be loved

I just wanted to be felt

swirling around until my head’s spinning

I love the feeling when things go around

because that’s what going inside of me

and all I wanna do is…

I just wanna fall into the sea

~Shreya Kadam

Mumbai, India