Being judged by my own shadow,
Being terrified by my own thoughts,
Being pulled by my own uncertainties,
Being scared by my own surrounding,
All seem to be abnormal
But I am pretending to be normal.
I don’t want to open my eyes
I don’t want to talk about anything
I am just so tired
And trying to make it rectified.

I don’t want anyone to judge me
I don’t want anything to stop me
But what I should do if that “anyone” is me
If that “anything”is myself.

I prefer passion over obsession,
analysis over expression,
being alone over being lost,
But what I should do if everything is reversed.
I don’t know what is happening to me
but is it true that I’m depressed?

~ Guduli Ranjan Mohapatra

Odisha, India