Like a shooting star she/ he rushed out of her/ his room
Looking everywhere for her / his loved one
Loudly she/ he called out to him/ her
But to her/ his disappointment
Only her/ his echoing voice could she/ he hear
On the floor she/ he flopped
Holding her/ his head wondering
Where could he/ she have gone?
Endless tears cascaded down her/ his cheeks
To God she/ he implored for help
But it too fell on deaf ears!
Her/ his hair she/ he started pulling in despair
Pleading with him/ her to return
Scared she/ he was to the core
Silently she/ he mumbled to God
‘Please guide and help him/ her
To our nest
O God, you do know..
I do take good care of him/ her in spite of everything
Though many think it otherwise
I blame them not, for my anger
Is the real culprit of this mess!
I’m sorry for it but ..
Their nonchalant rude behaviour
Into my heart pierces a dagger
I try to surmount it but..
Like an unrelenting ghost it overpowers me
Erupting the dormant volcano of
Pent up frustration & rage..
To my dismay!
Still unlike him/ her
I haven’t ever neglected him/ her
But, in the heart & mind of others
It isn’t so!
A frank person though I am
Not garbed in a cloak of impersonation
Yet I’m the victim of accusations
It indeed is an irony
Where pretense is viewed as honesty
Where sermons of goodness are lavished scrupulously..
By not only the deceitful but also
Those ignorant of the reality
For it’s true …
‘Seeing is believing!’
Anyway, that’s life ruled by destiny.
I’m supposed to forgive the accusers
A lost battle I’ve been fighting
For years together all by myself
But now am too exhausted to go on in this way
So I vent it out on myself
For the sake of my mental peace.
To inflict on others one’s own failings is their motto
That hover like a sword over their head
Thank God for everything
I know what I am and so do you, my God
That’s all, that finally matters to me!
From the depth of my heart..
I hope & pray for his/ her return
Please make not my life a greater hell
Already I’m much troubled
Take a moment to think over
How graciously I’ve taken care of you!
At times I’m sorry to have lost my patience with you
But that’s happened only..
When you were unreasonably
Indifferent towards me
I too am a human being
Your unconcerned behaviour
When others threw mud at me &..
You invariably joined them with a smile
Hurt me to the utmost
You never did help/ support me..
For the fear of God alone knows what!
I earnestly urge you to come home
Help me at least once or..
Are you hell-bent on crushing my world?
Just think for once on your own
Be not guided by others
Believe not in their words blindly for-
People love being judgemental
As long as it’s aimed at others.
Anyone’s life could be ruined by
Such sadistic pleasure.
What a farcical life we lead!
A genuine human with shortcomings like anyone else I am but..
Under no circumstances am I an Impostor!’
~Anuradha S. Bannore
Vadodara, India
your poem ms anuradhaji connects all those who have faced traumas of their life in a new environment after leaving home to adorn another so called home where pressure of a new environment and new faces destroy your very being for not being accepted as one of them
thanks for exposing these traumas a girl faces after marriage
It’s true in spite of being educated nothing has changed. Harrassment continues till today. In the institution of marriage education has completely failed it seems. A very sad state of affairs it is! Such people who have neither respect nor care for others should stop boasting about their being educated. Thanks Ms Diwakar for taking time off to not only read but post a comment too.