My sleep is fenced
As I make a vain attempt
To shut my eyes and ears
To the outside disturbance
Focusing my mind on nothing
The night layers unfold every minute
Leading me on a wild goose hunt
I delve in and out
Stepping on a stone one by one
Unaware of where it is leading me
I wake up and ponder
Where I am
Turning every side of the bed
Swinging like a pendulum
Ticking away the hours
Feeling lost, I pry into my inner self
Finding no answers about the annoying problem
Am I succumbing to the unknown world of mystery
Searching for a needle in the haystack?
Night slips into dawn
I am still awake
Sleep eludes me
As I tire of the ghost of the past
I struggle to get over the phantom
It pursues me incessantly
Day in and day out
Giving no respite
Speculation does not help
I heave a deep sigh
As I clutch my racing heart pleading
To beat in a softer cadence
And
Let me sleep
~Shobha Diwakar
Jabalpur, India
Your poem Ms Diwakar is a very emotional one. It touches one’s heart as you go through it as it gradually unfolds the sleepless hours of painful sufferings. A sad note of agony runs throughout the poem. The one suffering seems to be lost in a maze of confusion about his/her whereabouts. You, Ms Diwakar have very well expressed what life can do to one who suffers extreme pain.
yes ASB, very true . Life really becomes complicated at times and one caught in its mesh with many ups and downs upsets the psyche for loss of answers to one’s problems; one may search high and low it becomes tiresome and painful, Your assessment hits the nail o the head
Thanks for understanding the emotional aspect of the poem ASB