With teary eyes, she sat all by herself
Reminiscing on her life.
A sad smile through the tears–
Hovered on her trembling lips
Thinking of her ‘Love’
She pensively murmured–
‘Never ever again say ‘Goodbye’
A cold shiver runs through me
You know how those two words hurt me
Haunting memories invade my mind
Into the darkness, I’m dragged
All the skeletons in the cupboard
Suddenly jump out joyfully
Before my eyes, they dance in glee
Killjoy, they are for me
I can’t stop tears cascading down my cheeks uncontrollably
Blinding me from the present
Into the past they dump me
Is this what you wish for me with your..
‘Goodbye’?
If you must leave me, then do so quietly by all means
My stopping you doesn’t really count in your life
That, I’m a ‘nobody’ for you, I’m well aware of
Crazily I yearn & care for you
But that’s what–
Cupid’s Arrow of Love does!
In spite of all that we have gone through
Not once did I stop loving you–
Even though you always blamed me for everything
It was always a battle I fought within myself because..
Never ever did you support me
Yet patiently I bore everything
Stood by you in good & bad times
Still–
You never did fail to ignore me
In fact–
You never did miss an opportunity to–
Humiliate me in the presence of others
Fault lay at my doors for..
A one-sided love, it always seemed to be
Maybe that’s what my destiny is!
Your sweet words never did come from your heart
The lips, probably uttered them knowing–
What I wanted to hear &-
For Gospel Truth, I innocently took them
But
The treacherous reality did smite me!
How very painful it’s been for me
You have no idea!
In the safe deposit of my heart
I had locked my feelings but-
Your ‘Goodbye’
Unfortunately broke it open
How could you be so numb
Not to see what you did to me?
I still pray for your welfare
Although you care not for me
Maybe we weren’t meant to be together
But pondering over all that is now useless
Let’s just continue to live as we are
‘Love’ is undoubtedly, I now realise..
A sugar-coated quinine tablet
The sweetness soon vanishes &-
Yielding to the bitter taste of what actually it is!’
~Anuradha S. Bannore
Vadodara, India
That is the truth of many a love relationship, whether in or out of marriage. one can never realize what lies ahead and whether or not the bond will last for ever in happiness or in bickering. A romantic world woven around fanciful novels and stories one reads in adolescence breaks the shadows of reality when one faces real life.
Indeed a beautifully crafted poem Ms Bannore
Thanks Ms Diwakar for your very encouraging comments. It’s true love is like a lucky dip…no one knows what it will turn into over the years & while is entangled in the web of love Cupid continues with his pranks enjoying himself at the cost of others. That’s life all wrapped up in the glow of love till it gets unwrapped to show the reality.
Very sad and very pure ! Love on one side and contempt on the other – or grace on one side and barrenness on the other !!
Moving and painful – the utter waste of love in its purest form for one who is too unfeeling and unaware of the treasure wasted on him .