With teary eyes, she sat all by herself
Reminiscing on her life.
A sad smile through the tears–
Hovered on her trembling lips
Thinking of her ‘Love’
She pensively murmured–
‘Never ever again say ‘Goodbye’
A cold shiver runs through me
You know how those two words hurt me
Haunting memories invade my mind
Into the darkness, I’m dragged
All the skeletons in the cupboard
Suddenly jump out joyfully
Before my eyes, they dance in glee
Killjoy, they are for me
I can’t stop tears cascading down my cheeks uncontrollably
Blinding me from the present
Into the past they dump me
Is this what you wish for me with your..
If you must leave me, then do so quietly by all means
My stopping you doesn’t really count in your life
That, I’m a ‘nobody’ for you, I’m well aware of
Crazily I yearn & care for you
But that’s what–
Cupid’s Arrow of Love does!
In spite of all that we have gone through
Not once did I stop loving you–
Even though you always blamed me for everything
It was always a battle I fought within myself because..
Never ever did you support me
Yet patiently I bore everything
Stood by you in good & bad times
You never did fail to ignore me
You never did miss an opportunity to–
Humiliate me in the presence of others
Fault lay at my doors for..
A one-sided love, it always seemed to be
Maybe that’s what my destiny is!
Your sweet words never did come from your heart
The lips, probably uttered them knowing–
What I wanted to hear &-
For Gospel Truth, I innocently took them
The treacherous reality did smite me!
How very painful it’s been for me
You have no idea!
In the safe deposit of my heart
I had locked my feelings but-
Unfortunately broke it open
How could you be so numb
Not to see what you did to me?
I still pray for your welfare
Although you care not for me
Maybe we weren’t meant to be together
But pondering over all that is now useless
Let’s just continue to live as we are
‘Love’ is undoubtedly, I now realise..
A sugar-coated quinine tablet
The sweetness soon vanishes &-
Yielding to the bitter taste of what actually it is!’
~Anuradha S. Bannore