‘Unpredictability is really a scary thing!’
All by herself in her room she sat
Lost in a world of fantasy
The smile on her face
Deepened her dimples
Her face lit up with joy
She hoped to share her dreams so
Eagerly she waited..
For her ‘hubby dear’ to come home
But alas! What came was a phone call..
Beckoning her to a hospital..
All her joyful thoughts
Transformed into a nightmare!
A dreadfully agonizing cold feeling flooded through her
She rushed to the hospital–
To be numbed at the sight of ‘hubby dear’
Lying with hands dangling loosely
And eyes wide open!
Her world shattered..
Drained of all energy traumatized she stood glued
Staring at her healthy hubby–
Gone to another world much before his time!
The harrowing sight–
Killed a major part of her from within
The inundated eyes could no longer
Hold the fort
The dam broke loose as..
Inconsolably she sobbed
She couldn’t believe he who was
A strong healthy active man
Could be snapped off his life so cruelly!
‘Oh God what has happened!’
She cried to herself
‘Why? Oh why did you snatch away my beloved–
At the peak of his life?
No harm he ever did to anyone..
In fact, a very generous & a kind hearted man he always was!
Pray, tell me, is that a crime?
Maybe you needed such a man in your kingdom
What about his wife ( that’s me) &
Our loving children?
Our need is greater than yours..
Oh God, I’m sorry to say so…
But I’m sure you will understand
I implore you to tell me-
What should we do now?
How will we cross this unpredictable scary sea of a stormy life?
I urge you to help, please help us O God!
I implore you to guard, guide & protect us from all evil eyes, doers & accusers
Bless us with strength to shoulder
This gigantic irreparable, irreplaceable loss of our lifetime
To a brighter land you have undoubtedly taken him but you…
Left us in the pitch darkness of abysmal grief & pain
My children, though they put up a strong front
They are absolutely heartbroken
They say, ‘Their ‘Papa’ didn’t deserve…
Such a harsh blow & I completely agree with them!’
They loved him selflessly just as he did
They were the gems of his life
Great plans they had for their parents but now everything
Has blown off into smoke within a matter of few minutes
Their smile has transformed into..
Tear stained cheeks & swollen red eyes
Oh my God, how do I get back their beautiful sweet smiling face?
Please help us in bearing this unendurable, unexpected loss
Now that he’s in your world
Please take care of him
He has been a very good & a kind man
Ever ready to help people especially those in need.
Our dearest beloved–
Though physically you no longer with us
In our heart & mind you will always live.
We pray for your soul to rest in peace
Ohm Shanti! Shanti! Shanti!’
~Anuradha S. Bannore
Vadodara, Gujarat, India