My heart is twitching
My fingers are itching
To grab the receiver
Lest, it may deliver
The voice divine
For which I pine
And Pray
For he is just
A phone call away
Something holds me back
Forebodings that lack
Hope and conviction
To uphold my fantasy, my fiction
I’m not ready to hear, what I can’t take, I fear
Hence suffer agony, bear affliction
Let Nerves fray
Even if, he is just
A phone call away
Should I, should I not
How many times I thought
What if he disconnects
What if he gets
Mad
That’ll make me more
Sad
Already miserable
Wouldn’t be able
To take rejection
So no action
No display
God, but he is just
A phone call away
I am all ears
For one tinkle- one beep
Ready to burst into tears
With so many fears
Why can’t he call
Break the wall
Of silence,
Help me keep balance
Of my torn feelings, and deal with
My ambivalence
Why so much delay
After all, he is just
A phone call away
Whatever the result
Whatever amount of misery and pain
My dignity must I regain
Rather consult
My mind not heart
Even if we part
No bargain on my pride
No advance from my side
I’ve made a choice
It wouldn’t be my voice
To break the ice
Fate has thrown the dice
Adieu! Farewell
Passing through hell
I still hold the sway
Though, he is just
A phone call away.
~Sudha Dixit
Bangalore, India